to find that place again. That place of absolute consumption. I find it little by little now. With Jasmine is where I come the closest to that feeling again. Smoke filled rooms and blacked out lungs, that raspy voice takes me back to sin. I will keep her close because I crave that escape. Today with Vivian, Amirah, and Jasmine during 5th was as close as I have been to that place in years.
Prom weekend was amazing. So glad we got that hotel suite. We had so much fun. Lots of friends, lots of music, lots of alcohol, and lots of laughs. It was perfect. Seeing everyone so out of their element was wonderful. Comfortable and vulnerable.
I was consumed.